So im finally getting my centrelink $ on thursday. I rang about some houses today and i have a viewing tomorrow but now simons decided he wants to keep chiefy. I was so mad coz i specifically asked him about it before. Anyway, i will lookat this place tomorrow and see what i think coz maybe he could come for sleepovers but then that might just confuse him.
Jess is annoying me heaps today too coz shes been carrying on about being worried about getting caught lying about me living there when im at dads now. Ppl offer to help u then they chicken out over nothing. I cant wait to get them out of our lives. I just need to keep the kids fully occupied and tell them that theyre busy most of the time. Im grateful for what help i do get from everyone but it barely seems worth it for the bullshit u have to endure too. The only excuses i can think of for avoiding jess are:
They really make it hard to get $ and a house coz they barely believed me about not living with simon coz the stupid centrelink lady told me to leave my address as my old one. Its taken 5.5 wks to get any $ and thats only coz i phoned up and told them about our anxiety but i couldve gotten domestic violence immediate help (not that it really was) if id applied in the first wk. Then for housing i need referees and previous good housing and a heap of id, which im just lucky i have my passport to use coz the cars still in his name and the dogs unregistered and 2 bank accounts are still joint ones. It all just gets so messy and hard.
I just get so tired of having to play by everyones rules and rely on ppl coz they always let u down or use it against u or screw u around. Im going to try to keep things stable for as long as i can this time. Its too stressful doing all this crap. I still hope i can meet someone decent someday but i dont actually hold out much hope of it happening.